I've been debating about this type of blog post for quite a few month's now, but wasn't too sure how to write it or how it would come across to other people, so I'm just going to go with it and see how it turns out.
I've had what they call Social Anxiety since I was about 3......
What is Social Anxiety?
Social Anxiety disorder is sometimes called social phobia, Social Anxiety disorder is not just shyness, it is more severe than this. With social anxiety disorder you become very anxious about what other people may think of you, or how they may judge you.
- Shyness around people you don't know or don't see often (including some family members)
- Anxious around people you don't know or who ain't family
- Hate having to go out on your own, even just to walk the dog
- Not able to order for yourself when going out for food
- Hate speaking on the phone and would rather text or whatsapp instead
- A marked fear of dread when having to attend a social situation
My Experience With Social Anxiety
These are just a few of many things that can affect you in your day to day life and living with Social Anxiety, but for me just these listed are only a few of what affect me and have done for years!
I'm unable to attend any social events that I would be invited to, due to not being able to travel alone. It leaves me missing out on so much that I would possible love to achieve, and I mean alot!
By now I would have loved to have passed my driving test (I had quite a few lessons, and also done my theory test), I then failed my theory by just 3 points. Since I failed that I haven't had any more lessons, as I can't bring myself to go and do the theory again and fail for the second time.
I left school halfway through year 10 as I just couldn't cope with it anymore, so left with no GCSE's and I would have loved to have gone on to college and then university, but I just couldn't do it due to how bad my Social Anxiety had gotten by then.
I'm unable to attend any social events that I would be invited to, due to not being able to travel alone. It leaves me missing out on so much that I would possible love to achieve, and I mean alot!
By now I would have loved to have passed my driving test (I had quite a few lessons, and also done my theory test), I then failed my theory by just 3 points. Since I failed that I haven't had any more lessons, as I can't bring myself to go and do the theory again and fail for the second time.
I left school halfway through year 10 as I just couldn't cope with it anymore, so left with no GCSE's and I would have loved to have gone on to college and then university, but I just couldn't do it due to how bad my Social Anxiety had gotten by then.
Blogging Has Helped
Since I started up my blog back in 2015 it has helped me quite a bit, in the last few month's I have really been trying to get my confidence up. For example a year or so ago I would have never even thought about emailing different brands about possible collabs or if was possible to be added to their pr lists, for fear of being rejected and told no!
Now though I will happily send emails, and reply to emails with confidence, I have also started commenting more on other blogs and Instagram posts aswell. Interacting with others doesn't come easy to me and it never has done, but slowly I am aiming to improve on this one day at a time, and hopefully my confidence will start to grow from there.
Wow this post got a bit long didn't it!
If you are still here reading this then I just want to say a big thankyou for sticking around until the end of this blog post. I've had the first line of this blog post sat in my draft's for a good couple of months now as I couldn't bring myself to finish it off and actually publish it, until now!
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