Dear Anxiety.....

I have been wanting to do a post like this for quite a while now, but could never really put words to paper on what I wanted to say. It was only recently that I was sitting watching something online that I ended up just picking up a notebook and it all just came to me.

It's a kind of follow up from a blog post I did last year all about Social Anxiety and what it actually feels like to live with if you're interested then you can read that blog post HERE

So I thought I would share the little bit that I did come up with, and this is it...

Dear Anxiety.....

Firstly I want to start by saying I Hate You!

You have been a part of my life since forever and for some mad reason you just won't let me go and live a normal life, and that is why I hate you so much!

I have missed out so many things because of you...

I left secondary school halfway through year 10, because of you...

I missed out on the possibility of experiencing both college and university, because of you...

And so far I've missed out on making a life I could be proud of, because of you...

Did you notice what all those things had in common?

They were all because of you!

I always overthink and read more into everything that I actually should, and I also find it hard to trust or let anyone get close to me in fear of getting hurt. I've always been "the quiet one" of the family, who everyone thinks is being rude because I'm not outgoing or outspoken, but that's ok....because I won't ever be someone I'm not just to get people to like me and I'm ok with that.

I did fight back and believed in myself enough to do a nail technician course as well as a digital photography course, and I managed to pass both of those with the highest grades possible, which was a really big deal for me and something I am proud of myself for doing.

Now at 33, it's finally time for me to start fighting you back one step at a time. I'm not even sure how I'm going to do that yet, but I'm sure as hell determined to get rid of you somehow......one step at a time.